Semalam duduk mengeteh dengan kawan di S******* (Ana,im sure u can guess this place =p)
Mata sungguh sakit melihat adik-adik yang baru kenal dunia melepak-lepak.
Kalau lepak je xpe.
Setiap seorang, rokok sebatang di tangan.
Tak kenal jantina,berkepul-kepul asap keluar.
I've been home for about 5 weeks now. One word to describe Malaysia : SESAK
Dalam rumah sesak,
penuh dengan barang disumbat-sumbat.
Di jalan raya sesak,
penuh dengan kereta yang suka berasak-asak.
Semua orang nak berkerata,
tapi sayang tak semua nak bertimbang rasa.
Di kaki lima sesak,
penuh dengan manusia yang suka menolak-nolak.
Orang Malaysia memang pelembut,
tapi suka sangat berebut-rebut.
Ajak orang buat reformasi,
tapi diri tak mahu toleransi.
Di warung kopi sesak,
penuh dengan asap yang keluar dari tekak.
Tak ada lagi segan silu,
biarpun yang buat itu gadis melayu.
Asap hitam aku sedut,
Lama-lama dadaku semput.
Dalam bangunan sesak,
Semua orang suka melepak.
Tak apa kalau mahu berehat,
ini tidak, kacau orang terpekik melalak.
Dalam sungai dan laut pun sesak,
ikan, ketam, siput pun tak dapat bergerak.
Sampah sarap penuh selerak,
Warna dari kopi susu terus jadi hitam macam si gagak.
I'm missing my previous life! Saya masih anak jati Malaysia. I do hope you are here for good, as you are one of those who are making my life more alive!
Teman : 1. kawan, handai, sahabat, taulan: mengapa sendirian pula, tiada ~, tiada rakan; 2. orang yg bersama-sama melakukan sesuatu, lawan bercakap-cakap (bermain dsb): ~ bercakap; 3. sesuatu sbg pelengkap, jodoh, kawan: buah pinang dimakan orang jadi ~ sirih; 4. Pr ganti diri yg pertama, saya, aku;~ hidup orang yg dijadikan pasangan hidup (isteri atau suami); ~ sejawat kawan sekerja; ~ tetangga jiran; ~ tidur orang yg dijadikan kawan tidur; usahlah ~ dimandikan pagi prb janganlah terlalu memuji-muji;berteman 1. berkawan, bersahabat: sebenarnya kedua-dua orang itu ~ baik; 2. tidak seorang diri, ada kawannya: ke mana pun pergi jarang-jarang aku ~; bertemankan mempunyai (seseorang, sesuatu) sbg teman;menemani 1. turut serta, mengawani, mengiringi, menyertai: dia senang melihat kawannya ~nya duduk di situ; malam itu Ramlan ~ Swee Meng pergi memanggil bidan; 2. ki menjadikan sbg pemakan (nasi dll), melawankan: sayur pucuk ubi ditemani oleh sambal belacan dan ikan goreng; peneman seseorang (sesuatu) yg menjadi teman kpd: hanya linangan air mata ~ duka.
Karib : 1. dekat (hubungan kekeluargaan); ~ (dan) baid dekat dan jauh (sanak saudara); ~ kerabat saudara-mara yg dekat; 2. rapat, erat (persahabatan dll): kawan ~ kawan yg rapat;berkarib bersanak saudara, bersahabat baik, erat (rapat) perhubungannya: ia ~ benar dgn Mak Guna yg bijak itu; 
Care : ~ for, a. look after, menjaga: to be ~d for by relatives, dijaga oleh saudara-mara; b. feel affection for, sayang akan, menyayangi: do you really ~ for him?, adakah kamu benar-benar menyayanginya?; c. be interested in, mengambil berat: to ~ for their well-being, mengambil berat ttg kebajikan mereka; d. like,<.i> suka akan: I do not ~ for such talk, saya tdk suka akan percakapan spt itu; e. like to have, mahu: would you ~ for a piece of cake?, (kamu) mahu sepotong kek?;
This year is a psych year...ever!
I've been doing psych attachment for more than 2 months!
Even longer than O&G, Medicine and Surgery!
Yet, I still be in this blankness and perplexity.
Funny how people afraid to judge others when they've been asked to but willfully judge people in subconscious state.
In judging others, we expend energy to no purpose...But if we judge ourselves, our labour is always to our profit.
Such a big and sophisticated word for laziness!
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Too many things had happenned over this week.
The expected and unexpected ones.
What ever happen,
we know,
we must not forfeit.
As this is only one of zillion hurdles
we have to jump,
before reaching our destinations (where ever they may be).
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Hey....
PssTT...
WHAT?!!?? Really?!!?
p.s:Nuha, kalau tak faham,abaikan =)
Bulan baru- rotation baru. Mood baru, kesibukan baru. Semua pun baru. Motivation still same old-same old. Haih~
As many people having such unhappy days recently, maybe this ad could help to lift you up!
WILAY is one of my favourite series. Amanda Bynes is one of the main actress in that sitcom. And I think Val in that story is similar if not the same as myself...hehehhe...and Im hoping one day I'll have my own version of Vic...hahahha...
Enough with Lalaland, feet right back on the ground!
As we are counting days (we becoz it's not only me who does it =p ) to 'sayonara-ing' Aotearoa, these are a few things that I will be missing soon about this little land.
1. I really like ads here. They are funny, yet meaningful. Some ads I cant really understand at all, then I have to ask Melor.She is really good at interpreting tv's ads.
2. Having a fresh milk for my morning coffee. Fresh milk seems so luxurious back home. Here, it is necessity.Well it's true what the ad said about NZ - beribu juta lembu! (I have proved you the power of ad!)
3. The air is very fresh!I used to walk along Lambton Quay every morning. Lambton Quay is quite a full on area, it's in the heart of Wellington CBD. Yet, you can still feel the freshness of the breeze, even at 1 o'clock in the afternoon!
4. It's really safe to cross roads here. It's because they make full use of the zebra crossing and traffic lights. As simple as that!
That's all I can think of at the mo. Im not stimulated to brainstorming at present. Well, here's one of the cool ads from Aotearoa.
Ha, this entry is very related to the run that I am currently doing; O&G.
Another a week and 3 days to go, before I say goodbye to the ladies and pregnant mummies and say hola to general medicine.Something that I dont really look forward to actually. I dont particularly enjoy this run, but I have to say, it is quite interesting.I dont think I would do anything with gynae or obstretic in my future career but for locum, why not! This area of speciality is too emotional for me;good and bad emotional.
1. From my observations, women in labour are the nastiest creature in the world.They can be as mad as the Joker;or even worst than that. They have no mercy. I feel sympathy for the husbands or their partners have to put up with them.I think this is not acceptable.Even though they are in unsurpassable pain, they have no right to be rude to the husbands.One lady said to her husband, "You dont know what Im going through.You are responsible for this. You fucking man!I will never do this again. You bastard!" I mean, seriously woman.Do you have to be that nasty!Your husband did nothing. He just told you to keep pushing, in a very gentleman way!Does he deserve such words, just because you are in labour? I dont think so!Well, as we expected, the minute baby popped put, it's all one big happy family!So, is the hormone that we should put the blame on? LAME! In fact, the progesterone should make women calmer, it acts as tranqualizer in pregnancy. Surprise, surprise!
2. When you are having the contraction, the widwife (or the husband, or the observing Trainee Intern) will ask you to push as hard as you can. Sometimes, the baby isnt out, but the poopoo is. That is so embarrassing. Usually when I saw that 'yuck' face from the husband or from the lady herself, my respond would be, " Hey look,you are having a baby now. You need to push, and you are allowed to pooping at the same time. In fact, that is what we want. At least we know you try very hard with the pushing. Well done you! We want more of those! (Then, I give them a BIG SMILE)". Really??? I dont think I would buy what I just said to them. I could not take the embarrassment of doing your bussiness number 2 in front of people.Obviously not in front of my other half!
3. I am so impressed with husbands out there who are very supportive and loving. They have been a very good support for their wives or partners. You just cant believe what men can do,aye. They look so though, and emotionless.Yet, when it comes to caring and sharing, they become so gentle! Haih~
4. I also observed partners that just dont give a damn.Sometimes, the labour can take ages! Especially with the first time mom, or a very small (Asian) young mom.You can tell the husband had enough of waiting and screaming.They are too tired of waiting, hearing the galloping noise of the continous CTG for monitoring baby's heart rate.The sleepless nights that they have been through and the annoying things that the wife had done to them...owh, they just cant have it anymore!Or, they just dont know what to do, or they dont know how to support their wives. A simple as that. So, each time I saw that situation, I will try to encourage the husband to participant with the labour. Tell him to massage her hands, or her back. Keep telling her to breathe properly, pushing as hard as she can and keep telling her that she has been so goood,she is doing a very good job and we are so proud of her!Just shower the lady with encouragement and good words,man!.Sometimes I do get frustated when they just dont want to do anything.All they want is the baby to be out!Come on, your wife is not a baby's factory!
5. Most women with prolapse that I saw in clinic had previous history of more than 3 vaginal deliveries. Now you know what 'pushing' can affect your 'flower'.
6. All these valuable experiences make me think about the sacrifices and pain that our mother had been through. With world nowadays, I dont think it's worth to risk your life and to feel the pain when at the end, your own baby will be your own enemy. My point is, I dont think I am the best daughter in the world, but I am trying to be as good as I can. I cannot guarantee if my children could be at least as good as I am and if they dont, I would be the most unfortunate person in this world. (Well, who can tell what lies in the future,aye?) I dont know whether with labour, I could turn to monster and inevitably hurt the feeling of person that I loved most (giving the way I am, it is very likely for me to be that...hahhahahhah). Also I dont want to soil myself while in the process of pushing my baby out.It is horrible and humiliating (eventhough I say to ppl it is alrite). With given points, obviously at present I dont think I would be able to have my baby vaginally. Personally, I think vaginal delivery could jeapordise the marriage (well, literally...hehehhe)
Enough said; I am too posh to push! (well, at least for this moment of time. Who knows, it turns out that I am a heck of baby pusher!...hahahhaha)
Malam ku suram Siang ku kelam Ku gelisahan Mencari-cari ke mana pergi Harga diri ini
Mengapa aku jadi tidak menentu Kerana mu.... oooo...
Ya, sudah lama menyepi,duduk seorang diri di Palmy...
For the past few months, it has been an interesting journey in my life.
Went to see Faliqh Daniel;our little nephew, anak Teh dan Faris.
And, after 2 weeks of O&G, I found myself in the dungeon.Surrounded by nothing but darkness. There, I crashed and burnt.
Nuha just let me read her Postsecret Book collection. I just knew that there's such thing in this world-where people create postcards unleashing their secrets to public. They are very creative; revealing many hopes, fears and strange confessions. 
Sir, you need to evacuate now! Your house is not safe anymore. We give you only 10 minutes, sir.
Seems like many Srikandis have changed their title - to Puan...
My elective quarter is now in the middle way~another few weeks before 3-week holidays!
What a weekend!
We were supposed to meet Aza and PakLong over at Maktam's place, Oamaru.
Nothing as what we planned.
Aza and PakLong had an accident-Aza was sent to Christchurh Hosp by copper, fractured her proximal and distal tibia, also her calcaneous. Big haematoma on her left eye! Seriously, you look like a racoon, Aza! hehhehe
Anyway, dalam sakit-sakit tu pun, sempat lagi kasi my present. Ayoo...
"Derq, ambiklah hadiah ko tu, kat tingkap tu. sebabkan hadiah ko ni la kaki aku patah.aku bersusah selamatkan..."
Serius je Aza ni.
Tapi seriusla, tengok kotak tu. Penyek!Kesan dihenyak kaki Aza. (Aza stucked in the car.People had to call firemen to help her out!)
Gambar tak boleh nak upload lagi.
SEMOGA AZA DAN PAK LONG CEPAT SEMBUH!
Love you guys both!
Terima kasih daun keladi! Hadiah itu sungguh saya sukai!!!!
Here I am, back in the old place,where I belong to.
We were super duper excited and looking fwrd for this elective.
But, as Hamzah's approaching London St, I felt like going home at that moment.I cant imagine myself going through this horrible nasty winter again.NO!!!
Elective wasnt cruisy for us!More than our own medicine run! FULL ON!
DOnt even have time to do my own thing.
Deadline is right at the corner.I havent got any idea what to write about.
I need inspirations!!!
God,please help me!
Im missing Wellington! Welly peeps, u guys miss me?
(kenapa tak boleh post gambar ni?haih~)
